...even if you're not with me, I'm with you

Update!

2009-11-19T00:50:36Z

So, there's a few things to speak of.

1st - I'm now 29 weeks along, almost 30! I'm the 3rd trimester.

2nd - I'm having 2 baby showers, Toledo (his side of the family) and Michigan (my side of the family).

3rd - I'm getting upto 3 days off a week at work til March!!!! *BAD* Business is slowing down because of the holidays and not many people are traveling as much. This time of year SUCKS for when you work at a hotel. : /

4th - Semi-good news, my work doesnt offer maternity leave pay, so I checked in with my insurance that I get through them, and The Trans DI offers under "Sickness" pay for pregnancies as well :) And according to the pay roll worker, ill get up to 60-70% of my pay when I go for my leave, which is 6 weeks long.

5th - It's also that time of year to start up Christmas Shopping, oh joy! My favorite thing but its hard when not making much money.

Ok, well that's it for the time being. Nothing else to say really. Toodles! <3

beenpapercut182 @ 2009-10-05T20:00:00

2009-10-06T00:01:14Z

It's time for the updates:

1st- I'm now 23 weeks along :)

2nd- It's a GIRL!!!!!

3rd- One of my baby showers will be in November.

4th- Her Name is Mackenzie Paige Latta and is due January 30, 2010.

5th- I've finally took my 1 week paid vacation. and my friend from Michigan is staying with me for 5 days!
Then Nick and I will be going Columbus, Oh for 3 days. I can then finally go to Dave And Busters! Wooo! Lol

hey journal!

2009-08-21T00:35:47Z

long time no talk! hehe...well firstly there's a few things i'd like to update about.

(1. I'm 14 weeks pregnant!
(2. I finally went to Monster Jam Show!
and
(3. I had my 1 year anniversary of working at the Hilton! and at my party just the other night, I won a Aiptek Camcorder!!!
it also has a 8.1 mp digial camera, digital voice recording, MP3 Player, misc. It's my new LOVE, lol!

Well, that's about it....toodles!

[[<3]] Stephie

Wow

2009-04-11T02:37:05Z

Its been one year and one day since i've moved to Ohio!!!! WOW! A year sure did pass by FAST!!!

Well Happy One Year and one day of me being a Toledo-ian Day!!!!! Lol!

new job!

2008-07-21T23:14:33Z

Today was my First day at my new job, working at the Hilton Garden Inn, it was easy but hot! everyone is nice and we all work as a team. Its nice getting to know new people for sure!

All we really did was work on Floors 7 and 4 vacuuming and dusting off counters, tables, desk and etc. It was simple as can be! We only get like 30 min for lunch but today we got an hour lunch and put out time chart for lunch 30 mins, so thats more money! lol.

I work with my sister, a friend and my boyfriend. Its cool! i'm just glad I know people there. It makes things a bit easier for me.

**And last night Nick finally took me out for my surprise night with him, we went to this resturant that i've been litterally dying to go to since I found out about it, Elephant Bar! Its all jungle theme inside! wow! I was SOOOO happy! Ten went go carting afterwards! Woo!
Ok, well thats all I had to say! Toodles...for now!

Ohio, Here I Am!

2008-04-11T02:19:44Z

Hey! So im officially a Toledo-ian person now, as of yesterday! But im just in sooooooo much pain now, im sore all over my right side, especially my right side of my neck.
I had 2 friends help, my friend danny was driving my sister's finace's car while he drove the U-Haul. It was pretty fun. My friend David also came along, he was in the back seat.
It took what seemed like forever to pack. I had sooooo much stuff, you wouldn't believe it! And a lot of it was kinda not so meaningful but i took it anyways. There's just somethings that I cant let go of....well not anytime soon, though half the stuff i've had was in my life for like maybe 10 years+.

Well, anyways. yeah the move was alright though i had just too much shit! Everyone complained constantly about what I had packed away or saw me packing. I just took up too much space.
my friends were very helpful. That was nice of them! We were al lexhausted after un-packing everything, ugh. i'm very much relieved that im IN OHIO now! But I left behind all my friends :(
I hope they dont start forgetting about me or anything. I'd be so sad, though I am as it is already anyways. Some of the few people I wanted to see the MOST put absolutely NO EFFORT in trying to see me what so ever!
And yeah that hurt! but oh well, thats their problem. Well, im closer to my boyfriend now. He lives maybe 3 miles away. I hope to see him more since I moved my ass down here for him, well thats part of the reason.
Ok, I dont know what else to say....I dont have my apartment yet, I think i have to wait like 2 - 4 weeks. So right now im crashing at my sister's placewith my mom. Oh Fun! Well, i'll be going. bye bye.

my 22nd birthday.....

2008-03-06T05:52:52Z

So, my birthday was well I guess you can yesterday now. I went out with 4 friends to dinner and the movies afterwards. Thedinner was fun and really nice. I saw my old teacher there, unexpectedly, she came to my table and stopped to say HI. I was so glad to see her, that made my day. Sadly, she's been sick for a few years with Cancer and not too long ago I found it came back :( I was still happy to see her anyways. She's made it through this far. I believe she can get through this!

Well, we saw Jumper, it was pretty good to me! I had lots of fun. It was happy times! I love being around my friends! And one of my friends, Jared I dont see very much so it was especially fun to see him. Overall, my birthday was fine, fun, happy and rememberable!
It was WAY better thjan my 21st birthday. I mean i did jack shit! It was a real bummer...and 21st are one of the most special ones! Oh well.
And I get to celebrate again on saturday with my cousin IF the plans stick. Otherwise i'll be celebrating with my boyfriend, my twin and her boyfriend later on that night! :) YAY! Well, peace!

Emerald Theater Club/Bar

2008-03-03T04:33:49Z

I went out to Emerald Theater club/Bar saturday night! I got drunk ish. I had 6 drinks, smirnoff, 2 malibu pineapples, a crown Royal shot, a pucker apple shot and a fruity drink just like the malibu pineapple but not pineapple. it was alright.
I went out to Emerald Theater club/Bar saturday night! I got drunk ish. I had 6 drinks, smirnoff, 2 malibu pineapples, a crown Royal shot, a pucker apple shot and a fruity drink just like the malibu pineapple but not pineapple. it was alright.

my first time being to anything like a club, lol! that's just funny, im almost 22 and never been to a club until now!
I was soooo sick today omg! I woke up at like 9am all sick to my stomache and had the WEORST hang over yet!
I even threw up...ugh. I've been wating for that day to come too...lol...i'm nuts! Now I understand WHY everyone thought I was crazy when i told them "Icant wait to drink so much that I puke" It all makes sense now...not a good feeling at all.

beenpapercut182 @ 2008-02-12T22:39:00

2008-02-13T05:18:28Z

I'm just soooo aggarvated right now, i'm feeling so pressured to do things that it's making not be able to think straight and getting to the point that I just NEED to breakdown or runaway to get away from this feeling. I cant take it anymore.

I've been told for YEARS to move out of my aunts and go live my life how I want so I dont feel trapped. Thats how I feel. Like im a little bug trapped under a cup and can only go so far before ending up back where I DON'T want to be anymore. Its tough to just leave my aunt behind alongside my cousin Samantha. We've just recnently gotten closer since Jessica moved out the day after graduation. I miss her everyday since she left, what hurt the most was that she didn't even tell ME that she was gonna move out...the sister she lived with her ENTIRE life, itys like she just walked out of my life...well thats EXACTLY what she did. And we're not anywhere as close as we used to be because of it.

I mean theres times where jessica will bring up a past memory like at a concert and she'll forget that I was with her, its like she forgets that I go plalces with her, maybe because her freiends are there and since I gte ignored anyways its just that for an excuse. I tell her all the time I feel like she just erases me from her memory and forgets what we do together. I HATE that. she makes me feel like nothing. And she says i'm one of the only 2 people who she could TELL ANYTHING to but doesnt tell me shit! :( I'm her sister, I want to have those sister to sister talks. It'll just never happen. she wont tell me anything so why bother? all she'll do is just yell at me or change the subject or tell me to forget what she said, act like nothing was said and that we never had that conversation. Telling me to forget something she said is a sign of of trouble....of guilt.

Ok so to get to my point. I'm just feel really pressured to move out. I've had several friends tell me "move out" and i'm like "well, yeah I wish but i'm SCARED of my aunt." True...i'm scared to confront her...so i'm practically living in a "slave" type life.
I'm controlled and by that I mean I have to be home EVERY night because my Cousin Sam, cant be trusted alone. So that makes me MISERABLE! I cant spend the night at friends houses on week nights, I always have to be home sometime before 4am. Just so incase there's like a "fire" I can help Sam get out of the house....it's all about Samantha. Not me. I'm living a miserable unhappy life just for Sam's sake. I love her and all and my aunt too but I feel i'm being treated unfairly by knowing deep down I got to live my life MY way. but I cant get the courage to tell my aunt I got to get out of here. I'm also afraid of my winning title...as my aunt said since my birth, I was her favorite neice, because I came home from the hospital 2 weeks later on her birthday. We have this special bond, we finish eachother lines and think something and the other will say exactly what the other was thinking...

Also, I'm scared of life. I'm scared to get a job on my own, without help. All my life, i've had help getting my jobs, I never had to once look for one myself. When I was in school I Transisition Services find me jobs, the best outcome in that was everyone loved me at all the past jobs i've had. I'm good with responsibilities and doing as told and nothing further or jepordizing. I follow rules and take care of myself. I'm sure there's tons else to learn in life, and yeah i'm afraid to take those big steps and mistakes...but they help with getting on right track.
I've had a few opportunities to leave my aunts ywt i didnt because of my mom. I'd have to live there and there she doesnt have fodd all the time and there's rarely nothing to do. But I get along with her really well. I just dont want to move out and then know deep down I have freedom but what do I do, where do I start this new life? How? Maybe go to Ohio for a week and be happy not having to worry about coming up a certain time....because I wont be under the stress timer of "Ok, i'll eventually have to go back to my aunts and be slaved again" feeling.

What should I do? Go be with my sister and my boyfriend in Ohio where I'm FREE, happy and can start a new life or keep going back to my aunts where I get pressured by few family members yet many friends telling me to leave so I can do what I want, and yet have to worry every night about how I HAVE to go back for practically no reason. I dont think im needed there intentionally. I think maybe my aunts knows my weakness unlikes my sisters' and yet she tells me to do something I do it whether its fair to me or not. she knows I wont back out because i'm under her control litterally. I certainly dont have the courage to just get up and say "hey, I want to move out" just like that, im out!
Never happen, im too chicken, most of all i'm 21 and still have to ASK to do things....

I'm SOOOOOOO confused!!! :( Grrrrrrr

Oooo Lost

2008-01-31T04:14:25Z

WOW! The Season Premiere of LOST is Tomorrow...2 HOURS!

Holy!!!! I cant get enough of my bad boy Sawyer! ; )

I'm pretty damn excited! Though I definitely could use a recap...of the entire 3rd season.

I watched 1 1/2 hours of the 2 hour recap tonight...so I remember some stuff. I think i'll be ok.

**In other news, also tomorrow is Nick and I's 1 month anniversary! yay, we did it! lol
We made it that far, and hopefiully more months to come...

Weekend....

2008-01-28T20:37:43Z

So, my boyfriend, my sister, her boyfriend and a new friend all came to visit my mom this past weekend and we couldnt go to Dave and Busters like planned b/c the new friend came along and he's only 17. whatever. So we ended up going to BD's Mongolian Grill, mmmm! I love that place! they cook the food for you on this huge fryier right in front of you. There's varies of food you can choose from.
My boyfriend bought a Hawaiian Volcano Maragarita and it was pretty friuty, yum. I'm an occasional drinker now. Not so good.
And we couldnt make up a choice ofwhat shot I wanted so the waitress picked it out for me and chose a Pineapple Upside Down cake shot! YUMMY! It was like the best ever! she couldn't have picked out anything better than that! Then laster on after we left we all went to Ride Aid on the cornor to my mom's place and got a variety 12 pack of Smirnoff Ice! Wow! I drank like 5 of the 12...during the entire weekend.
My weekend was pretty damn good. Woo Hoo!

Hopefully we go to Dave and Busters this weekend....since Nick wants to come down again, just ot see me. Suck that he lives in Ohio though!
I hate being away from him for 5-6 days at a time. whatever...i'm handling it all well. He laos went ot the mall and bought my clothes and an iPod armband for me....he REALLY didnt have to do that....I kept sayingit over and over but does he listen to me, No! lol
And oh yeah he got me phone...Verizon. SWEET! 700 minutes to share (350 each) and unlimited texts...right on! He's the greatest...

- Steph Jo -

OMG!!! It's Been FOREVER, literally.

2008-01-17T22:25:25Z

Wow! I dont even know where to begin....I haven't been on here since MAY! WHOA! But I have a good excuse, haha...I forgot my password....and I know I should of had my password e-mailed to me A LOT sooner but for the last 2 months i've been trying to guess what it might of been.....but I never remembered it. I have NO CLUE what it was...my memory really is just that bad. not cool.

Well, my latest updates....I went out for Halloween as a Devil, yeah ok whatever.
ThanksGiving was alright. nothing too exciting...since the cable was not working in the livingroom I couldn't watch the annual parade with the family like usual....so i was running up and down the stairs, lol and then another CBS parade came out and it was like 3 hours long, and Jordin Sparks (the latest american idol '07) was perforoming. And it was great! :) And also Menudo (the newest members) all teens has performed as well, and I liked them so I joke around a lot saying I like "my noodles"....i know not funny or is it? I dunno.

Ok, now Christmas. GREAT! : ) my sister was in town christmas eve and spent the night at my moms and last minute I was able to spend the night there as well so that was really nice! I got a Video iPod the latest model, shirt wide ones...cute! and I got The Harry Potter 4 disc collection special aedition. ok-harry potter dvds and EACH movie in the set came with 2 disc-movie and a special features disc. I cant be more clear than that.

**And my sister got me a New HP Photosmart R742v camera!!! and im totally obsessed with it! i take it almost everywhere I go. I just LOVE it!

My LATEST OBSESSIONS are:
Harry Potter aka Daniel Radcliffe
Jordin Sparks
Criminal Minds (of course)
Lost (thanks to david) like i needed ANOTHER show to add to my list :P
iTunes, I now listen to my imported music EVERYDAY than listening to tthe radio or CD.
And Ellen DeGeneres show! week days at 10am

Other news: I recently started dating again, and his name is Nick and he lives in Ohio. My sister introduced him to me...over myspace...we started chatting and hit it off pretty fast. how he asked me out: he texted it to me...while I was talking to him on the phone...silly guy!
So now I'm Taken and lovin' it! He's amazing. VERY FUNNY! --- Which to me is super important, because no one can make or get me to laugh, I dont get jokes so dont even bother trying to tell one to me. I'll just sit there super confused..anyone who knows me can back me up on that.

Anyways, um...thats all to say for now. I'm so GLAD to be able to write on here again.
I've missed you all!!!

Update: Mid April to May 27th

2007-05-27T23:46:02Z

Whoa.....been over a month since I have written in here...well, I got a new show to add my TV list: Lost!
And I an thank my dear 'ol friend for that! :P Good show actually. but not my fave.

Ummm...had boyfriend in April, Shane. I loved him, he loved me...suprisingly..j/k.
We had to break up though when he told me last Thursday he was moving back to Tennesse :(
His mom got a promotion at her new job and she told him she's help him get new one if he moved there.
So my heart's broken b/c his mom coned him into moving back home...thats how I see it.

I REALLY miss him, so very badly. Cried over him for a week straight, I've never cried over a guy...not nearly this much in my whole lame life. Sadly, he told me he still loves but he left me behind...Hmmm that makes me wonder if anything he said was true : / It looked pretty damn easy for him to just take off and leave me behind....not signs at all of being upset.
but I cried for days...sometimes 4 times in just ONE day...emo girl.

ok...so yeah besides that i'm still slowly painfully getting over Shane (though really I don't WANT to)
Tomorrow is Memorial Day! Woo...I get to sleep in. oh joy *rolls eyes*
nothing else to say....uh buh bye for now.

Steph

my first drink...

2007-03-19T05:06:58Z

I waited until after St. Patty's Day was over to drink it.

It was straight up vodka with a slight flavor of apple...at exactly 12:30am March 18, 2007.
Yeah, alcohol is now sold with flavors....very since recently.

My mom said it was a little more than a "shot" but it took me whole 9 minutes to drink it all, ugh it was intresting...better with the apple flavor though!
I can't even imagine what it taste with it just straight plain vodka. I don't think i'll EVER try that plain!

The best part was...for me, I didn't feel a thing...I mean my mom kept looking at me ever 10 mins and saying "nothing?"
and I kept on saying " no, I don't feel a thing...nothing!!!"
I don't know what i'm supposed to feel but whatever.
It was no affect on mt whatsoever! n.o.t.h.i.n.g. I think I'd have drink a lot more to feel something...i'm sure someone will agree with me on that one....

21st

2007-03-06T03:46:35Z

Oh wow...happy flippin 21st birthday to me! ugh...it was horrible. I got ONG whole phone call...oh I feel "SOOOO" special.
I did absolutely NOTHING at all!!!! What a bummer.

I can't beleive my birthday hd to be hell b/c of other drama issues going on with other people in the house...how so unfair! but somewhat good news, is my birthday is to 'supposed" to be celebrated on Wednesday the 7th. We'll see just how that goes.
I wonder when do I get to start having all the "fun"? Oh well. I'm over it. : /

where's the love eh?

2007-02-17T05:34:31Z

Had an interesting Valentine's day alright. I'm going to copy what Jeff wrote in his blog so I dont explain anything any different...

Gather round boys and girls and listen to a tale that can only be reamed up my ass from a being of another plane...
So I go out, buy some milk, cauliflower, baby carrots and a salad, thinking this will be fun, when on my way home, there was a news bulletin about a giant, carnivorous, Car eating flat bed trailer running rampant in the streets of Eastpointe.
Now I thought, "Wow that would really suck if I ran into that thing..." When all of a sudden, like a really shitty Allstate commercial there was a BAM! And as I looked to my left, I see this trailer barreling right at me, brandishing its teeth. After I squeal like a girl and shit myself, I hit the brakes and slide in the snow, so I gun it and pull a hard right. The trailer of DOOM smashed into the front left, I almost lost a light, but it's still dangling there, and as I turned it scrapped my ass bumper as if to say, "Take it bitch!"....

^-- That's all Jeff said about the accident

---- Yeah so that was a hightlight of our "we can be lonely together" V-day day! : /

But as the night was slowly passing by it got better. had a nice pot roast dinner w/ salad and watched Criminal Minds together and cuddled, got all warm and cozy and all that shizdazzle. And the night ended with a Happy Ending! hehe! Went home at around 2am.

Sure Hope everyone else had a good valentine's day. <3

lovelace

2007-02-14T20:20:14Z

Happy Valentine's Day! <3

life for the past few weeks....

2007-02-10T04:12:09Z

hello LJ! So, I've noticed I don't do my day to day entries anymore. i'm trying to back away from writing sooo much but bythe time I do start writing something new I have way to much to say. I just like to give details on my life...no biggie!

So, lately there's been lots of fun going on. I'm dating now, after being single since Oct. 5th, 2006. I have to say getting back into the "dating" mode isn't all that bad! I went a few dates--Steve, Robert and now Jeff! Oh, I really like Jeff but we're not b/f/g/f or anything. After going to a party that my friend had I was intrested in this Steve guy, but I sent him the wrong signal by flirting with him, oops! Then I realized that Jeff was at the party so I started talking to him and now pretty much everyday that he work off, we hang out! :) And that got really fun! *giggles* But i'm really enjoying the Single life for now :oD

Went to Summerset Mall to have late lunch with Jason a couple times! That was fun especially yesterday (thursday the 8th). I was talking way too much and didn't have much time to eat and Jason took a whole 1 hour lunch break and I talked half way thru it all, wow, thats so NOT like me! seriously. for the people who actually know me, the real me would know thats a big step for me to just talk too much since i'm well known as the "shy" one! And i've also done something that I don't normally see myself doing but its not bad.
Flirting is just too fun to stop now.

I've spent the last 2 weeks hanging out with Jeff and I see that he's helping me break away from my shyness, its really actually working too...thats awesome. Its working slowly, one step at a time but hey i'm finally getting somewhere...so relieved. Also my 21st b-day is coming up in a few weeks! Hell yeah! I'm looking specifically for a "little black dress" to wear; I wanna be in the spotlight. lol!!!
Yeah we'll just see how that goes!

- Steph -

An Army Of One!

2007-01-25T22:36:39Z

My friend is now officially in the US Army, he left yesterday!

He's in Missouri for 10 weeks then will be transferred to Arizona for 49 weeks.

I just saw him for the last time Monday evening. I miss him already. It's ok, i'll live!

He's working with the computers, whatever its called.

I keep forgetting and I was told the name about 5 times in the last 3 days...

"The task ahead of you is never as great
as the power you have behind you"

ugh 2007

2007-01-02T05:01:08Z

Well, this new years totally sucked! I wish I had fun but I didn't. My friend andew and his g/f Lauren were over mainly the entire day but I just didnt like it as much as I thought.
Then they left, as it was rainging out they dedcided to come back so I was stuck with them all night!

I was happy that Andrew was there but b/c I know how much Andrew likes me, I dont understand why he's dating Lauren, I get this feeling he's likes her but is using her, I don't know! So at 11pm we started watching Dawn of the dead, that got really boring quickly. I wasn't up for anything really. Complaining about everything...I was just getting on everyone's nerves, thats not what I wanted to do but thats how it came out.
New Years 2006 was the BEST New Year of my life! I loved that new Year! If I could turn time back it'd definitly be to that night! :)

I really hope 2007 is better than last year! It has to be! I'm turning 21, but is gong suck ass b/c its the FIRST year ever having a birthday without celebrating w/ my sister! :(
So even that bums me out. I have not much to look forward to, and thats sad! I know i'm suppoded to live life to the fullest or whatever but i'm just not feeling it. :/
I'll try to make the best of this year goes as I wish.

beenpapercut182 @ 2006-12-29T15:49:00

2006-12-29T20:49:56Z

So, ive been in Ohio since Christmas Night! So Exciting to finally get away from home. It sure was a long 1 hour boring ride here! but I lived! I got a little tour of the new home, nice! met all the other roommates, I already know Bryan! <3 He got really cute since I last saw him, which was just a few month ago. whoa! So much can change in so little time. Once the tour was done I got to go to Jess/Kyle's room! :)
we opened gifts there, I got a shirt that says "I'm Addicted To MySpace" I love it! and the Evanescence cd I didnt have and it came with a DVD, SWEET!
I feel like a normal person here. not being bossed around or anything. no chores for me. yay!
Oh I met the dog, Durango! wow is he jumpy! hyper i'll say for damn sure! The first night I got here I wanted to sleep on the floor in the basement "livingroom" but the dog kept on bothering me so I had to move to a chair w/ a stoole. Ohhh and that wasnt fun. Litterally a pain in the neck, the way I was postioned.

Tuesday I went to jess work for the first time! its not like a normal thrift store like i imagined it to be, its a little different, way too oragnized, and the prices are high for a few things! I got a few things while I was there since it was the day after x-mas all prices tags that are purple were priced 1.00! so I got nice silver/greyish shiney coat, a roxy sweater and a navy blue shiney tank top. I dont remember what i did after that, haha! I remember that night I was looking up pericings, on wednesdays in Ohio there's a piercing/tattoo parlor that charges only$10.00 for any piercing above the bellybutton & up so I was looking up bellybutton piercings for me and it looked so painful. I'm a prude as my friends tells me. its true, sadly. lol! I've wanted my bellybutton done for like 3 years now but always too scared to do it, worrying about the pain, lame me.

Wednesday I woke up a little early, went online and left a message to friend on mysspace and right after I sent it the internet went down. of couse its always me that uses the computer last when anything goes wrong with the internet. I'm just special like that. I was totally nervous about the piercing, nearly backed out but with Jessica encouraging me to get it after hearing me whine about wanting it, I decided to get it done. We stopped by the house to see if Bryan wanted to tag along, he wasn't doing much so he came with us! but first we had to get something to eat, just a little something so I wouldn't "passout". I completeld one of my goals! Jess said its good to be nervous and I was so I mostly thinking about the nervousness, it got my mind off everything else. she even told me the worst thing you can do is watch as you're getting it done, why? I dont know.

So all i did was hold Jess's hand when the big pinch came along. No Pain!!!! I can't believe I was backed out for years over nothing. I'm sooooo mad that I didnt get it done sooner! it really didn't hurt. i'd say on the scale 1-10 I would say 2! That's nothing! I'm good with pain considering all the injuries i've been through! Afterwards we went to get pizza at a bar! haha...I shared with Bryan! Ohh lala! and later on Mitch stopped by, that was suprising! 2 of my fave guys here together like old time when I first met them a few month earlier. We re-started the motor like 3 times and nothing. I went upstair with jesswith hang with the guys for a little bit. but Criminal minds was on so every commerical I was up and down stairs. At night when Kyles working and Jess is sleeping I had nothing to do, but i remembered I had the Evanescence DVD so I watched that later on that night. it took up about 2 hours of my time then I went to sleep.

Thursday I went to the mall! its big. Went to Claudia's- Grocery store. I dont like it much but Jess loves that placeand wants to work there! Went out to dinner at a mexican restuarant. I already forgot what its called, some weird long name but it was happy and bright inside! kinda Foresty which I liked. I really didnt have much to do last night afterwards. Since the internet wasstill down all I did was watch a little tv then put on my Evanescece DVD again, i love it too much! I'll never get tired of it!
I went to sleep pretty early last night! but I was freezing! No one likes to put the HEAT on here so its best to bring hoodies/sweaters.

I have to go back to michigan tonight! Sooo not cool! ugh! Nor fair, the time just had to fly by so fast didnt it? I have good things to do today, like meet Kyle's family and go to the Toledo Zoo while the Christmas lights are still up and whatever else we decide to do along the way...maybe get Arby's or McDonalds! I dunno! but I want a McFlurry! Mmm!
My hands are freezing right now! Not cool! I got to go on aim/im since im not at home, so thats really cool. I hope I can come visit here again, I love feeling like I have freedom!
Without having permission do something...that is.

Happy ~*~ Holidays!

2006-12-25T06:16:03Z

Merry Christmas!!!

Hope everyone has a great Christmas and New Year! <3

Great news as well: I'm going to OHIO! To visit my sister for the 25th to the 29th! I'm soooo flippin' excited! YEAH! I packed up earlier today so i'm all set to go! My sister just happend to tell her roommates that i'm a "babe" so now i'm demanded to dress like a hottie...which im good at so its no problem! lol

And I got to see my most favoritist person ever the other day!! *wink* So I think know this year's Holiday is going to be the BEST! <3

x: just bitchin' :x

2006-12-13T05:31:49Z

Ever since my sister moved down to Toledo all i've really wanted was to see her for more than 2 days and thats hard for me to plan out because I walk my cousin to school every morning and when my aunts not home, taking my mom to rehab clinic im home to babysit her. My aunt said (but obviously doesn't remember) but she DID say that once Sam was out of school for a break that it was possible I could visit sister, we'd just have to work something out. I've been talking to my sister about how excited I was on seeing her and the new place and everyone else but it seems that the people who live with really don't seem to give a fuck what I want. After all I do A LOT for the people here and all I get in return is yelled at repeatedly and end up in tears. I'm not happy, and when I am it rarely happens. I just mainly pretend to keep cool and go along with whatever. I hate talking and starting or getting in the middle of arguments because no one else here wants to deal with Samantha and her adhd problem and so on. I'm always too scared to ask things because I know the answer will always have to revolve around samantha in some way or another, and its keeping me from living the life i've always wanted! I'm sick of this shit!

So the yesterday Jessica called to see if I had asked yet if I could come down. I asked while she was on the phone, and the answer was that she could come for the weekend...but I needed to watch my cousin in the mornings when my aunt is with our mom. whatever. It got to the point that I was sooo upset that I started crying but knowing howstupid everyone is here, no one had the slightest clue that I was crying. Well, Sam came down stairs and saw that my eyes were really watery and I said I was "tired" but she said they're too watery and found out it was tears, but she kept it secret. She's just too smart, you can't out smart her. What's so weird is my eyes STILL hurt from all the crying last night! thats not good! they feel kinda sore, its under the eyes that hurt. :/

I'm not too sure who Jess mad at the most at this point, but she's full of rage. me? for being too chicken shit to confront my aunt and say "I'm Going" or my mom because she can't get her act together and stay straight so I can for once do something I want wihthout having to worry about getting yelled at or being told to watch Sam over and over again. (its been since I was a fucking sophomore that my mom has had to go to the rehab EVERYDAY becasue she cant stay clean for more than a month) or my aunt for not keeping her word. I know that my aunt is just as tired of putting up with my mom, she's not appreciative foranything really. thats sad. I know she's taking OUR mom to rehab so i'm here to watch sam in return of her doing the favor but its Christmas time and really right now more than anything all I want is to SEE my sister! I know she feels the exact same way as me! It says so in her entry as well. I want to see what her life is like and where she lives, meet the roommates and see her boring work, she hates it! awww!

My mom has promised me and my sister for so long that she was going to clean up and get straight and be a good mom for once, and now shes the reason I I cant do what I want without going to my aunt first to see if I HAVE to watch sam on any certain days. Sometimes I think that Samantha has ruined my life, I know thats way harsh but its how I feel. I know she's my cousin and I should care for her but I just dont feel that way about her...and its rarely that I do or even get along with her. We're always fighting, i'm always mean to her yet shestill looks up to me, why? I dont know. I'm so confused!

A Holy Joly Time

2006-12-06T22:43:01Z

I got mostly all my Christmas Shopping done! I still have to get my Aunt, Mom and possibly something else for Jennifer and Samantha! I got ALL my sister's gifts!
I went to Macomb Mall, and I saw Huyghe!!!! But I think he might or might not have saw saw me the first time...but when I went to FYE (my fave music store) Huyghe was there too, so he must have saw me if not the first time then that time. whatever. He didnt talk to me at all. Like I was invisable.

Do I care? kinda. but that doesnt matter to guys. Well, he looked dead sexy in the security uniform! ;) ohhh lala! He did really look good! CUTE! I think he might have gotten a haircut? not sure....looked short, like a buzz...or maybe he didnt get a cut at all and i'm just thinking that because i'm not used to seeing him without a hat. Had lunch at Coney Island! Sad memories, just days after my break up with Derek, Jess, Kyle, Joe and I all went there for late dinner and I was a little depressed and that was also the night that I was hoping to get those Evavescence tickets but were sold out! I wasn't so happy but I kept quiet!

Hmmm...well, in other news. Jess got a cell phone, only works for month until the contrat runs out. :/ Got the Chirstmas tree all decoreated! finally! still have some bows to up and the lights arounf the arch ways and windows and we'll be all done, I think. I discovered the fun of photobucket! thanks to little cousin Sam! Without her I NEVER would have had anything better to do at my late night computer schedules...now i'm addicted to looking up photos! I constantly send them to my friends on myspace and even got ones for my profile on myspace! :]

And Tonight is Criminal Minds!!! BUT It's not a NEW epsiode!!! repeat! Nooooo! :(
This day cant possibly get worse...or can it? I'm sure so if I keep asking so i'll shut up! :P Toodles!

beenpapercut182 @ 2006-11-30T22:43:00

2006-12-01T03:43:41Z

There's always a day where someone learns something new and well, this isnt exactly "new" in general but its new to me...I learned a new language today, more like a code type - pig-latin. my cousin was on the phone with my aunt and they were speaking in that code so her boyfriend wouldnt find out what she was talking about and when my aunt got off the phone she told me about the language...its been around for quite some time I suppose. Obvisously i'm really slow if I JUST found out about this...what else dont I know that has been around for time?
I think I have a lot more to learn about the past...

iminalcray indsmay isay hetay estbay!!!!
^ -- anyone tell me what this says! if they know pig-latin :P